Well then...
let me see what's been going on in my life for the last week or so, i haven't
writen in a while... i tried out for the fall play, and didn't get a part...
that sucks, but not really cos they were doing grease and that just really
sucks anyway... i dunno... i really am not too bothered by it. In
Travis news... hum... well what can i say, we talked ealier this week and
desided to like lay off each other and remain just friends... and i was
really okay with that, that was what i wanted... but saturday we all went
to the fair and travis started like macking on Kristy hard core... i mean
they were all over each other... two words... raging jelousy... i was like
beond jelous... i don't know what, this was what i wanted, i even planned
on setting the two of them up, but something inside me snapped, and got
really jelous... i know i'm evil. But, i am not going to stop their little
relationship from happening, because, this is what i origionaly wanted
to happen, and i know it will work out best if it does happen for me and
nate. Nate by the
way i love more than ever, i talked to him saturday morning on the phone
and he said that he wouldn't be able to make it up the that fair... i was
all sad cause i haddent seen him in forever (like two weeks... but it felt
like forever)... and i'm walking around the fair all like jelous and bitchy,
and he comes running up to me... i like screamed and hugged him, and then
i started crying cause i was so happy to see him... i felt really dumb...
HE QUIT HIS JOB TO COME SEE ME!!! isn't that the sweetest thing anyone
could have ever done!! i couldn't believe it, i love him soo soo
soo much, which is why i am kind of hoping the kristy thing will work out
for travis, even though i'm a jelous bitch. i dunno, i know it will be
good for travis, and i know it will be good for kristy too, so i'm just
going to step my jelous ass down and let them do what they will. Also at the
fair i ran into my long lost crush, who i was like in love with two years
ago... so i macked on him hardcore too... and i also macked on a guy i
know named derick... he's a little hotty! plus i feel so bad for the guy
cause him and his girlfriend of like years just broke up and she was like
cheating on him and everything... god... i used to like her... i don't
anymore... poor guy, broke his cute little heart... god i wish that i knew
why i was such a little mac-daddy.... i am too... i like mac on all these
guys, even though i know nate is the only guy i want... i dunno though...
life kinda sucks when it comes too men... i dont like them that much anymore...
no that's not true i love them more than ever. i love men... i love them
all. I recently
found out how much i love men... because if you can get them whipped, you've
got it made. Travis is whipped, he'll do anything i ask him to... so will
nate... so will a little cutie named cody i go to school with... guys are
great! once you've got them broken, you can get whatever you want.. god
that's so mean... i don't think i sould be saying this on here, what if
men are reading this... Sorry, but goddamn it it's true!! the cool thing
is, i don't even have to like put out to get these guys to do shit for
me... and that is really cool! All it takes is a little charm, and i think
i have some of that, cause damn i'm good!... ok, i really sound like a
bitch now.. i think it's time for a new subject. Well, i dunno...
i love nate and i love travis... i do love them both which is why it's
so hard for me to like deal with men, cause i don't know how to deal with
it, cause i want to pick nate... i really do. but in all honesty i'd rather
just be a poligamist, because that would make everything much better...
for those of you who don't know poligamist is someone who is in more than
one commited relationship at a time and all the people know about all the
other people. You know if i could just work something out... but i know
that would never work, cause nate is a really jelous boy... but he did
see me give Travis a little peck on the lips at the fair and about spazzed..
so i'm happy he didn't. Cause if he hurt Travis i would like kick his ass!!!
But i think i'm going to get going to bed.
