I'll start off
with last night... okay staci invited me up to a concert in Alta... it
was a cover band called Unstrung... who by the way thoroughly kicked ass!!!
I had a really great time. The band was fucking awesome! i got to
talk to the drummer and lead singer. i think i was kinda cute... all i
could say to the lead singer was "can i touch you", it wasn't even that
he was that hot... it was just like i was in awh of the guy, i was so impressed
by him that all i wanted to do was just touch him. i finally got to go into my
first mosh pit *ouch* i'm still feeling that one. i realized something while i
was there. i have like this amazing need to surround myself with guys,
they make me feel very special. I dunno i hung out with this sweetie
of a guy named Clinton that i had met before this summer with staci, and
god he's a cutie... and his friend Seth is a cutie too... God i love boys...
Seth said i was hot, which made me really happy! and then before we left,
Staci made both Seth and Clinton tell me that they loved me... God that
felt good... sometimes i wish i didn't have a steady boyfriend.... just
so i could play a little... but i guess i'm just going to be a good girl.
Tonight i had fun as well...
except tonight i did nothing... i had a nice big bubble bath, and
i lit a bunch of candles and incense... and i just relaxed, which is what
i've really been needing to do... i can't wait to like sleep all of tomorrow....
or at least most of it... Today... i love life... i love living today...
i've just kinda cleared my mind and thought about nothing but pampering
myself... my god it feels good.
I think tomorrow i'm going to do
some magick... i dunno what yet... but it's a fun moon and i really want
to do something.... i love doing magick... it makes me feel.... special...
i haven't casted a circle in a long time... it will feel good.
I talked to nate last night...
that was fun... that made me happy too....
Oh Yeah! Leah called me yesterday!
that made me like supper happy, cause i miss her a lot since she moved...
got i love that girl to death.... she's great.... she told me she stole
me a bible from her hotel she was staying in... i think that's really funny!
i wrote her a letter today... but i guess i won't get to send it till monday,
blah... i love her... she makes me very happy....
I love Matt... i've been like
actually talking with matt and like doing stuff with him... which makes
me really happy because i love the guy to death. We used to be like really
close, then we like didn't talk for a really long time, and now we're kinda
close again.... that makes me really happy... cause i like matt a lot...
i always have... he is a great guy... and if he would ever, ever like find
me attractive, or like me as more then a friend in any way... i would so
go out with matt... well maybe, it depends on how things were with nate...
god my life revolves nate... i don't think that's healthy.
But i am finish now.... but i guess
i will explain the colors.. those colors are basically how i feel about
what i was righting about ... the emotion that either i or the person or
event i'm speaking of in like a color form. see to me green is kinda exciting
and crazy, blue is relaxing... etc. okay... i'm shutting up now... good
night.
