Well hello there my adoring public...
i wish... welcome to my world once again
I've been really moody lately...
i don't guess i really know why... i just have been... i like spaz over
lots of stupid stuff... and little things just really annoy the fuck out
of me, like a lot of stupid shit that shouldn't. i don't know...
i think maybe i just need some time alone... like Travis is pissing me,
and Nate is pissing me off... and for some reason i feel really fat...
and i'm not, i know i'm not... but i got these new pants that make my legs
look short and fat... and for some reason i like cried over that... i dunno
... i think there is something wrong with me, if i'm crying over my short,
fat legs.
Lets see here... I miss leah,
like really bad.... she e-mailed me yesterday, and i mailed her back today...
i miss her so much... that makes me want to cry too.. damn it... i guess
not crying and being so happy all the time finally caught up with me huh?
cause now all i want to do is cry... and i'm such a bitch lately too....
i can't explain it.
i dunno what's wrong with me...
yesterday i had a panic attack... going back to my thing that was my big
issue at the beginning of the school year... i still don't know what i'm
doing next year... but i think i know i'm going to nate's college... of
course i have yet to be accepted... and if i don't i will die, because
i don't know what i'm going to do if that falls through.... i don't know
where else i would go... or i would want to go. blech! i hate being a senior.
i guess that i don't really
have too much else to say... i just needed to like vent my emotions for
a second... yay... and i made it all the way through my whole little entry
without crying once... that's a good thing... but i guess another thing
i need to do is go take a bath... so buh-bye.
