Well... it's been forever since
i've done an entry... and for once a lot has changed...
first of all.. i moved, not
to a different town, but a different house. so this is the first time i've
been on this computer in over a month. i have been really busy lately
too, so that's a major reason i haven't been able to update my page...
god it's not even funny... between school, play practise, work and my
friends... there was like no time to do anything but sleep and eat... which
i could still use more of.
Well.... on to my soap opera life.
Boys, well lets see here, Nate is continuing to be the biggest sweet in
the world, in dead, to big... for a while there he was driving me crazy.
it's almost like his world revolved around he, he was far, far to depended
on me... so i had a little talk with him and we decided to have a "looser"
relationship. Although, i guess i'm the only one who's really trying to
be looser. Travis... needs to fuck off
and die... i haven't seen nor heard from the kid since Dec. 22nd... oh,
there's a friend for ya... then he has the balls to write me an e-mail
and put at the bottom "still love ya"... yeah... maybe you should talk
to me again before i die... actually i would like to hear from him... so
maybe he doesn't need to fuck off and die... maybe he can just to fuck
himself till he turns back into an intelligent human being. My new little boy crush is a
new guy at work (who reminds me so much of travis) named paul and he's
a fun kid... let me tell you i like that boy a lot! he's so fun... and
i have a little (big) crush on him, so i just kinda want to play with the
kid for a while... i don't know... i know i don't want a serious relationship
(cause of nate and all) but i would like to get at least get to be his
friend and all, and if something more comes of that, i don't really have
a problem with that... god i'm awful.
i have an interview at nate's
college on March 3rd... which me luck... god if i don't get in i don't
know what i'll do... i need to get it in.... i really have no other option...
plus i really want to go there... i love omaha, i'd get to move in with
nate, and i already have some friends there.... god it's great...
OH! i have to tell you about Rob... god i love that kid... he's fucking
adorable and he just better come hang out with me while i'm living there....
god that kid is so cute... i love him.... i'm telling now.... if nate and
i ever break up when i'm living down there... he's my rebound.... he's
fucking adorable (not to mention slightly hot)... oh yeah... i love the
kid to death already, and i've only really hung out with the kid like 4
times... but i love him.
Other than all of these things...
i've been kinda pissy lately... i have sever writers block and i can't
seem to shake it off... i can't write anything... not a single good poem
has come out of me in months... it's really pissing me off... i guess since
i'm not a depressive little thing anymore i lost all my talent. Damn it,
the price of being happy... god i want to be able to write so bad and i
just can't... it sucks!
but i think i'm done for this evening...
i've said a lot for the night... i will try to write you soon... i know
more things will be happening sooner and sooner... it's that whole senior
thing i guess... i'll leave you with a stabbing westward quote because
they kick ass!
