Hello there and happy fucking leap-year.... whoo let me
tell you, what a fucking fantabulouse day! actually, it's not that
bad right now... i've cooled off a lot since 9:00... i guess you may want
to hear the story eh?... this one's a long one kids...
you know i was having a fine,
wonderful, happy day... i was in an okay mood, not the greatest, but it
was okay... i didn't have 5th period today, i got my transcript for my
college interview this friday, i all in all having an okay day...
so i go to work and i'm talking
to regan (kasey's boy) and i'm all taking about how if he fucks with her
i'm gonna beat him down, cause i care about her a lot and she's one of
my best friends, and no one hurts my friends... it's a rule. and
so you know i'm talking kasey up, talking about how sweet she is... blah
blah blah.
Break Time... i try to go talk to
kasey, i haden't seen the girl all day. So i'm trying to talk to her and
have a nice conversation with her. meanwhile she gives me one word answers
to all my questions and has a little aditude in her voice. then she just
fucking gets up and walks out of the break room, not one word, nothing...
so paul (my little crush) picks up on this and gives me a confused look.
all i could say is "well, she's pissed at me for some reason... i really
don't know why"... so break ends and she goes back to her area, i go back
to mine.
so i go to regan, and i'm like
hey, if you talk to kasey tonight find out why she's pissed at me... regan
of course (being a smart boy and all) points out what had just happened.
"ten minutes ago you were sitting here talking about what a good friend
of yours she was, and how much you cared about her, and now she's all pissy,
and now your in a bad mood." (those weren't his exact words... but i really
don't remember what they were.... but you get the idea)... so yeah, i sad
there a little pissy for a while... but i got over it and started feeling
happy and in a good mood again.
Break Time #2... kasey runs in and
out of the break room before i can get the chance to talk to her (suggested
by regan), so i went in there and sat down, and i see lisa walking by the
door, so i quick get up to run and catch her to see if she knows what kasey's
deal is... so i come running around the corner and yell "Lisa!" and look
down and low and behold there kasey and paul are sitting on the ground
talking... so me not being able to ask lisa, just offer her some corn nuts
(what else am i to do, i look like a moron). So lisa has to leave, and
paul gets up and leaves, and kasey gets up and walks away from me and goes
back into the break room... yeah hi kasey, that's real friendly... you
know, it hurt a lot too... that was a really bitchy thing to do. so she
didn't say anything too me, and she was leaving and left her coffee on
the table so i'm like "kasey, you want your coffee." and in this all too
bitchy tone replies, "i'm coming right back"... yup... just trying to be
helpful.
So you know she comes back and
leaves the break without one word. So after a minute of sitting by myself
in silence i go out to my seat and low and behold, who is in my seat talking
to regan. yup... she doesn't acknowledge me and i dig in my station
for stuff, log back in, and try to get situated. again... thanks kasey.
So you know, she leaves... and then
she moves over by us. and she sticks her little finger with tape on it
and makes noises, with this big cheesy grin. when i just look at her she
gives me this look, and says "it's funny, laugh." That's about all i can
take... so i say something like (i don't remember the words exactly...
i was angry) "oh your gonna act pissed at me all night and then expect
me to laugh"... and she gets this what are you talking about look and says
"i'm not pissed at you" (or something)... and i said something along the
lines of "well, you wont barley talk to me, and you walk away from me when
i do try to talk to you." and she was like "when did i walk away from you"
and so you know what i think i said "fine, whatever" and sat down and didn't
talk to her the rest of the night.
i guess i didn't have much else
to say... see, now it got me all emotional and ready to cry again... was
fine when i started this thing... God, so you know, maybe she wasn't pissed
at me, maybe she was just having a bad day of some shit... but she was
acting like a bitch. You know if your fucking having a bad day, don't fucking
take it out on me. I've let people do that to me for too damn long, deal
with it yourself... and most of all don't be a bitch to me and expect me
not to be a bitch back.
So yeah, i drove around angry for
a while, almost ran a red light and stopped right before a van hit me...
it was quite close... at that time i decided i needed to stop driving,
so i went to matt... God i love that boy, so i told him what happened and
broke down and cried... poor matt, he had this little started look for
a moment so i told him to hug me and i'd be fine... and he did and i bawled
for like 1/2 a minute... then it took me like 5 minutes to get my self
back to normal (you know able to finish sentences without making funny
noises cause i can't breath when i cry.) and then it was done... me and
matt talked for like another 45 minutes and i was fine... and i left there
all happy and refreshed... no longer wanting to go bawl my eyes out. i
told matt it normally wouldn't bother me so much, but i have PMS right
now so everything makes me cry... and it's true, everything makes
me cry when i have PMS....
WHOO what an entry eh? it's
been a while since i've like had a real story to tell. it's kinda good,
and it feels good to let it all out... again... but i will write more to
you tomorrow and update you cause things have just been crazy in my life
lately... not just with kasey... but my god with everything... i just don't
know... i would do it tonight but this puppy is long enough as it is...
well.... ta-ta.
