Well.. hello, yes i know i haven't written in a while...
i am just evil when it comes to this thing... but hey i have been so busy
i barley have time to think... I've been going to school, working all the
time (i'm putting in 36 hours of work this week) and just been to busy
to comprehend. Last weekend
i wend down to Omaha and saw nate... i was very pleased!! I got to go shopping
at Hot Topic, my favorite store in the whole world, and this cool store
called New Realities, which was the first real new age store i've ever
been in... It Kicked Ass! Then we got drunk with his roommates, and
that was fun... i had a great time last week... it was really cool... And i know
any of you who read my last entree are wondering, "what happened to Travis",
well... that is kind of a weird question to answer. I don't know after
my last entree, we like made out once (the next day)... and haven't since.
I mean we still do stuff together, but since school has started, we really
don't do much together. I don't know we still like give each other little
peck kisses, but that's really it. Other than that, we're basically friends,
but i have no idea how he feels about me, and i don't know how i feel about
him... Seeing nate the past two weekends in a row really kind of put things
in focus for me, i love him so much... and i can't mess that up.
He is a really great guy and i don't want to loose him. So i hope travis
is thinking the same thing about Meredith, although he keeps telling me
that they are fighting all the time and complains about her bitching and
shit, i dunno... i just hope they don't break up, because then i'm afraid
he would come to me, and i don't know if i could go to him. I do
love him, i just don't believe that this love is as strong as the one i
feel for nate. In other
news, I am an Avon lady now... yes i sell make-up too now... and so far
it's going good, since monday i have sold over $100 of stuff, which is
really good, i think it is any way. Lets see here... school is boring and
consumes to much time. Work is really boring and consumes way too much
time. i tried to quit a little while ago... that didn't work... everyone
talked me into staying. I have to say though, it did make me feel really
good that they did want me to stay. Josh really was the one who talked
me into staying... he made me really feel wanted there. Josh is a sweetie.
Lexa (his g/f) doesn't like me to much because i touch him, she's a bit
possessive and that's ok, i'm a bit touchy, maybe too touchy, that's ok
though... i know it's all just in fun and so does josh, i just wish Lexa
thought of it that way too. Because i would really like to be like friends
with Lexa she's pretty cool... so i'm keeping my hands off josh from now
on, i don't want to get him, or me into trouble... plus Lexa could really
kick my ass. Let's see
here... I am getting Hard-Core in Magick again... i need to though, i've
been slacking lately and it's time for me to do some cool shit... i like
doing magick and rituals, they are really fun for me and it makes me feel
more spiritual... i just wish i had the time to do more of it... but i'm
getting better again, working toward things, setting goals that i want
to meet, and using a bit of magick to get me there... it's fun! I've also
been trying to read more books, finish all the one's i've bought in the
past two years and haven't read... i bought 5 last weekend with nate...
i read one already though... so 4 left to go... plus about 5 books i have
and haven't gotten to yet. Oh and i got Runes last weekend, so that is
the next book i'm reading, how to use the little guys. i can't wait to
get started! =) i love my religion. Well, i guess
that's all i have to say for tonight, i really will try to write more often...
really i will, as long as time permits, hopefully it will. But i
need to go to bed, it's getting late and i have school bright and early
tomorrow *gag*... So i'll see you next time... Sweet Dreams
